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5th March 2007 | 02:43 am
mood: pissed

Oh, and for the record.

I AM angry. And pissed off.

And I didn't just say it out of nothing, even if it was something I said lightly.

And your way is not always the best way to handle things.

And walking out was a really immature thing to do.

And I'm pissed for having to pick up the pieces.

And I'm pissed for not having the capabilities to just do something so simple as to think before I speak, and thus preventing this whole thing to begin with.

And I'm pissed that I know I will own up to a lot more of my mistakes than vice versa.

And I'm pissed that I can't be real.

I'm pissed that I put up more fronts than I realize.

I'm pissed that I'm a faker and a liar and an idiot.

And I'm tired of people thinking they know me or understand me and they really don't.

And I'm tired of not being able to let anyone get to know me really.

And I'm pissed when I get scoffed at.

And I'm pissed when I am belittled.

And I'm pissed when things bother me when they shouldn't.

Because really, I have a hell of a lot of bigger things to worry about.

And most of all, I'm tired of making so many mistakes that I have to fix. I'm tired of not being perfect. I'm tired that I'm so far from it, that I don't know how to be anything other than a screw-up.

My resolution for the new year, it's hard. I'm trying. But it's been really hard.


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from: kaerlihed
date: 6th March 2007 02:56 am (UTC)

wow. =(

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