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6th March 2007 | 03:36 am
mood: desperate
music: Jaci Velasquez: Lay It Down

I've been looking 'til my eyes are tired of looking
Listening 'til my ears are numb from listening
Praying 'til my knees are sore from kneeling on the bedroom floor.
I know that You know that my heart is aching
I'm running out of tears and my will is breaking
I don't think that I can carry the burden of it anymore.

All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are slowly slipping through my folded hands.

So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now.

What else can I do?
Everything I am depends on You

And if the sun don't come back up,
I know Your love will be enough.

I'm gonna let it be,
I'm gonna let it go,
I'm gonna lay it down.

I've been walking through this world like I'm barely living,
Living in the doubt of this hole I've been digging.
But You're pulling me out and I'm finally breathing in the open air.
This world may be dark but I'm finally seeing
There's a moonray of hope and now I'm believing
That the past is past and the future's beginning to look brighter now.

Cuz all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands.

So I'm gonna lay it down.
I'm gonna learn to trust you now.
What more can I do?
Cuz everything I am depends on You.

And if the sun don't come back up.
You know your love would be enough.

I'm gonna let it be.
I'm gonna let it go.
I'm gonna lay it down.

I'm gonna lay it down.



It's as easy to forget God in times of no worries as it is to ask God for help in times of desperate need. And here I am, feeling thoroughly overwhelmed and feeling this great distance from Him and a strong desire to return to Him and remain in his love.

It's easy to feel the love of God on a retreat where your environment, and your everyday activities invite you to be in a holy and spiritual atmosphere. But how do you keep that feeling? How do you remain in his grace?

It's Lent and I feel like I'm failing to even be in the presence. I'm slipping further away and I need to get back so much.

Everything is falling apart, and I know I would be so much better off if I just let go and let God.

But I feel so far away and I don't know how to come home.

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