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30th April 2008 | 04:38 pm

i lay down every night but i can't get no rest cuz it starts spinning in my brain and then it's pounding in my chest what if i wasted all my youth what if i wasted my growing up what if wasted my whole life oh man i feel like throwing up it's an anxiety attack, an anxiety attack i've got bad case of the horrors and at night it comes back first i look back at my week and then i look back at my year then i'm terrified to speak then i'm paralyzed with fear and i'm tossing and i'm turning and i'm going 'round the bend all i see are all my failings downward spirals without end then i see horror in the future then i see horror in the past then it's 4am, 5am, 6am at last cuz what if i never feel grown up then die in a car accident and what if i go crazy and what if this time it's permanent and what if i go broke and have to move back with my parents and then what if i got a cancer and i ain't got no insurance all my days are moving faster and it's making me feel dizzy how come i get nothing done but always feel so busy and i used to feel so smart you know i used to feel so strong but this just can't be how to live i must be doing something wrong because everything i might do feels like something else i can't then another day is gone and i just don't know where it went i try not to hang out too much try not to watch too much television but still everything i do just seems to be the wrong decision and i lay down every night but still i can't get no rest cuz it starts spinning in my brain and then it's pounding in my chest its an anxiety attack, an anxiety attack i've got bad case of the horrors and at night it comes back
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Is it really that difficult for you to just be a regular functioning human being? Do something right for once, you goddamn waste of air.

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