I was sleeping in the lilies or was I up all night

- "Maturity is knowing you were an idiot in the past."
- "If that's true, then wisdom is knowing you'll be an idiot in the future."
- "And common sense is knowing that you should try not to be an idiot NOW."

"The first question I ask myself when something doesn't seem to be beautiful is why do I think it's not beautiful. And very shortly you discover that there is no reason." - John Cage

Rules: Don't take too long to think about it. 16 books you've read that will always stick with you. First 16 you can recall in no more than minutes. Tag 16 friends, including me because I'm interested in seeing what books my friends choose. (To do this, go to your Notes tab on your profile page, paste rules).

1. The Red Tent - Anita Diamant
2. Harry Potter (the whole series) - J.K. Rowling
3. The Little Prince - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
4. Water for Elephants - Sara Gruen
5. Fight Club - Chuck Palahniuk
6. Where the Wild Things Are - Maurice Sendak
7. A Wrinkle In Time (and the rest of them) - Madeleine L'Engle
8. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
9. Feelings - Aliki
10. Echoes of the White Giraffe - Sook Nyul Choi
11. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
12. The Bus Driver Who Wanted to Be God & Other Stories - Etgar Keret
13. Dibs in Search of Self - Virginia M. Axline
14. The Chosen - Chaim Potok
15. Bridge to Terabithia - Katherine Patterson
16. Ender's Game - Orson Scott Card

I got tagged on Facebook so I'd thought I'd do it, I don't want to 'tag' anyone on here but I'd love to see all of your guys' picks too. :)

That book sucked, I want a refund.

We'd have been twenty-one this year. All of us.

It's been about a year and a half since you died (was it really that long ago?) and yet every time I think about what happened, I'm still floundering in some state of disbelief.

Even the most bizarre scenarios I entertain are easier to digest. Anything but dead. I went to the funeral. I've visited the grave. Jonothon Joel Olmos.

And yet, I find myself still half-waiting (or is it wanting?) for a phone call from someone telling me that they found him, or "Surprise! Just kidding! We have a sick sense of humor!," or he had to get off the radar for some reason or other. FBI agent or some shit. Anything.

Anything but dead.

It's weird. He's dead. You're dead. Dead dead dead. You're not supposed to be dead. But somehow you are.

Sometimes I'll be driving home from work or just doing whatever it is I do and from out of who knows where it hits me again and the only thing I can get out is a big fat WHAT THE SHIT MAN. What the hell, Jonny? Why are you dead? Why are you fucking DEAD? What the fucking hell.

What the hell. Fucking.Piece.Of.Crap. It shouldn't have been you, damnit.

You're not supposed to be dead.

Dear Life,
I am totally awesome and I'm not going to wait around for everyone else to realize it anymore.
Awesometime, here I come!
Stineeeeeez

Please don't shut me out. I miss you.

Most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do
I wish they would try to

Peace be with you, Michael.